So there's this guy I met in 8th grade and I'm now a senior in high school. When we first met it was like love at first sight 💋 we never got in a relationship just flirting and hugging all the time. As the years have gone by we've been on again off again because it'll be periods of time where we just don't talk to each other and he'll get a gf or I'll get a bf. There was some times where he was in a relationship but still talking to me and trying to keep our bond going strong. So fast forward to now he finally asked me to be his gf permanently and idk I just feel like if we break up it's going to be really bad, our families are friends with each other and everything. But it's like every time I try not to talk to him so i don't ruin what we have built already something happens that pushes me right back into his arms. No matter how much I try to push him away I end up right back with him and he never goes anywhere. Im not a trusting person and he knows this so that's why I try to push him away at times. But I feel like if he was any other guy he would've easily been cut off that's just how i am🤷🏽‍♀️. But it's something deep inside of me that just won't allow me to ever cut him off.🙄🤦🏽‍♀️idk I'm just confused. He's so good to me but I just don't trust people and I don't like to open up to guys but I can't see myself never talking to him again😕