Prayers this is real and sticks please!

Vfl, but it’s there right? I’m terrified. Previous losses at 9w, 5w and then a termination at 13w due to anencephaly all in the last 18 months. I was laid off 5 weeks ago tomorrow, turning 37 in 2 weeks, when my last pregnancy should have been due.

My mind is spinning out of control right now thinking I should have been preparing my body better this time. We had a failed IUI in March and decided to stop trying so hard and just live. Please god let the lines get darker and the doctors give me good news at 10w and beyond.