My heart is breaking all over again

This was my second month TTC again after my missed miscarriage in April. I knew when I ovulated, my temps where going up. I had all the symptoms of pregnancy I thought I even saw a faint line on a test. I was so ready and in my heart I knew I was pregnant. Then today Af showed her ugly face. I had about a 45 minute break down in the bathroom screaming, crying, throwing things. I’m fed up of it never happening to me. Everyone I know has like 3 or 4 children and then there’s me just praying for 1 little angel. I know it will happen but I don’t think I can take much more. It has been over a year since I started trying and it kills me every time I get a negative or my period 😭😭😭