So we weren't having like full sex or anything but we were doing stuff and he'd been going for a while and I was close but because it was the first time someone else had done something to me it was different so I felt pressure so... I faked it 🤐😬

It's weird I almost feel guilty and kind of ashamed, ugh idk girls I feel like this is a common thing to happen during first times and I'm 17 so it's not like I'm experience or anything but idk theres just this part of me that feels so guilty for lying cus he thinks he's done really well and everytime he mentions it now I'm gonna have to lie cus he's a sensitive guy too so if I told him I lied then it wouldn't be good and would probably make him feel insecure about sexual experiences in the future

Ughhh girls I just feel so ashamed but I know I shouldn't but ughhhh

Is it okay to fake it? Should I feel bad, cus I kinda feel like I've let myself down?