Hi y’all. So quite a few years ago I used to self harm on my thighs. It has left a few nasty big raised scars. I don’t regret anything else in my life but that. My decision was selfish, disgusting and back fired SO much. I have to constantly be aware of my shorts/dresses around my family.

I haven’t owned a bikini (without shorts) since I was probably 10 years old. I finally ordered a few.... I’m tired of hiding my body.

Next week I’m going to basically a water park with my boyfriend (mature date huh lol) and I’m planning on wearing a REAL bikini.

I’m so nervous.

Does anyone have advice for me? I know it’s silly but I haven’t worn a real bikini in a decade.