Remembering EDD?

I had a miscarriage last Dec and August 1st would have been my delivery date. I don't think it would be so hard but I saw the heartbeat at 7 weeks and we lost our child at 8 weeks on Christmas eve. I buried all my pictures and the ornament I had made for our baby under our pear tree. I actually smile when the tree blooms :) just wondering if I'm crazy because I know the 1st is gonna be hard. I haven't been pregnant since :(