So we were trying but are on temporary hold so why do I feel so disappointed?

We were actively trying for baby #2 from August to March but due to restrictions on a cruise we are doing in October, we put the trying on hold.

I still get so disappointed every time my period starts. I got some spotting today and just wanted to cry...but I chose to wait.

I had stopped my birth control pill in August and have been off sense and have just recently been using the pull out method instead of condoms. I’m not sure if that has my hopes up some or what.

I just don’t know what to do...