i feel so terrible😪

god forgive me but i feel so terrible i cant seem to find myself excited for baby #2. i have a 6 month old son already and im 14 weeks and i just cant seem to get excited for this baby. i find myself worrying more then anything about my relationship with hubby and being able to handle two young kids and still keep up with myself just the slightest bit! i know once the baby gets here im going to fall in love but right now its just hard i find myself more sad then anything and of course because how im feeling this pregnancy is going by super fast so the only little excitement i have is praying its a girl...did anyone else feel this way? any tips on any of this? specially how to mange life with two young ones and keep your relationship going with hubby