I haven't posted in awhile but felt the need to today. My boyfriend proposed to me on July 23rd and course I said yes. we will be together for 5 years in October. He is an awesome man who came in and helping support and raise 2 kids that are not his by blood. I love this man with all my heart and would not change anything about him. I have been wanting another child for awhile now and we experienced a miscarriage about 3 years back. I can not wait until we get married! He knows I want to have another child maybe 2 more because he has none. He is 6 years older than me he is about to be 41. I started looking back at old calendars on Glow and realized how in the HELL he expects us to have a child together and we have sex 1 to 3 times a month! I feel like I will never get pregnant at this rate! it is so frustrating because he is so laid back and like If it is meant to be it will happen! When says that to me I just want to punch him in the face lol. I am thinking like dude you know babies happen when you have SEX right! But for real I do hope things change when we get married. The only reason I want him to realize is that he is an only child and he has no one to carry on his last name. He such a good man that I want him to have a legacy to carry on. But I know God has all this under control and I must wait on his timing! But I just needed to vent for a minute.