This time felt like this was the month that it would happen. We heard from the Lord on his promise so much, saw timing align perfectly without us trying to calculate and it had such a witness that this was it. But it wasn’t.

It is at the forefront of mine and my husband Josh’s heart to have children and that desire burns more and more in us as time goes by. Our efforts to figure out the fertility issues include surrendering and posturing our hearts, being more specific in prayer, tracking cycles, multiple diet and environmental changes in our daily life, as well strolling through an expensive medical journey the past few months.

After testing, some things have been concluded:

* All organs are normal and everything is working!

* Hormones called Prolactin and DHEAS are elevated. A tiny Rathkes cyst by the pituitary gland that was found, which the doctor doesn’t think its causing the elevation in Prolactin.

* Thyroid is enlarged, but all levels are normal.

* Low Vitamin D level.

* If it’s PCOS, it’s not really showing up.

The prolactin level is produced in the brain and the hormone that produces milk, most likely it’s what’s keeping me from conceiving. Yes, there is a medication for it, but I am no fan of medicine and all of the possible side effects associated with them. They way I see it is, there is a cause to why this hormone is elevated. Medicine only masks the problem, but it doesn’t get to the root of the problem and heal it. There is a ton of information out there, which I am grateful for, but there isn’t much to answer my why questions.

Who can answer our questions? Jesus!! He literally knows everything! He knows what, where, when, why and how this will be resolved. We are trusting in him 100% that he will bring us a child as he has promised in his timing. There are times of absolute frustration, where getting furious at God appears easier than agreeing that His plans are greater. His mercies are new every single morning and he wipes away my tears every month. He restores my joy and faith on an hourly basis, it seems.

So I am continuing to press into his promises, keeping faith that his promises are Yes and Amen. Leaning on prayers, prophetic words and utterances from heaven and from saints, and encouraged by those around me who have walked the journey with me. I’ve been taking some herbal supplements, attempting to get my hormones balanced and aligned. My diet has been loosely focused on low carb/low sugar for now. Also striving to get more physically active, which has been hard with fatigue and schedule.

Choosing to believe with FULL FAITH that his timing is perfect and He has miracles yet to pour out, declaring in Jesus name that they WILL come! Testimony in progress!!