All you guys finding out gender is making me want to cry....

Sarah • I have two beautiful children a boy and a girl. TTC baby #3

I'm 13w4d and I want to find out the gender. I almost want to cry because I don't know yet. (I wasn't this sensitive with my son, all I want to do is cry and panic this pregnancy) seeing all your posts about the gender is exciting but I want to know my baby gender and if s/he is growing properly.

Anyone else feel this way? Any ways to deal with it? Or just suck it up?

I find out on the 25th (unless dr will do ultrasound on the 22nd at my obgyn ap)

Idk just want to vent blah blah blah