I’m 23 years old and haven’t had a good relationship with my mom for as long as I remember. She has always been manipulative and mean. There are and have been time when I was less than kind to her too but for the most part I just went to my room to be away from her. I live alone now and she is sick. She had surgery that did not go well and is unable to walk or use a wheelchair independently. She hired people to take care of her. I have done everything I can to help her but every time I even step foot in her house she berates me and tells me that I don’t come over often enough and that I don’t help her and she never has a kind word for me. I suffer heavily from anxiety and depression and last night I had a panic attack so I drove to my mom’s because she used to always calm me down. I was met with manipulative comments telling me it’s my fault because I haven’t been on medicine for it and that she has tried to help me for years and that there’s nothing she could do at which point I just crumbled on the floor just begging her to help me and begging her to be nice to me and love me. The way she treats me makes my anxiety so much worse but the thought of cutting her off completely is just as bad. I just want her to love me. I don’t have a dad so she is all I have.