Should I delve into the deep trenches of rough sex?

Gabriela-Jacquelina • 22🦋 Bikini Designer & Expressionist Painter 🦋 CEO of GGBIKINI

After reading so many comments on here about rough sex, spitting, anal sex, letting the man take control, Bdsm I have decided to try some out. When fucking last night I let him have his way which he really enjoyed but it is mostly painful for me especially when I’m not in the headspace. I’d like to be in the headspace all the time. I’m scared he will cause me injury or something I just have a hard time letting go of my constant need to control and let him fuck me the way he wants. I want to be that girl for him. Is it okay to let go? This is the first man I actually ever had consistent sex with and learned everything from him. I don’t know if my vagina can take it yall. Does lube help? Anything that can help get me more turned on? I find I’m not getting as wet and nasty feeling as much anymore and it makes me sad...