do i look fat or ugly??

its the summer time,witch means allot of swimming. but I hate wearing swimsuits and am very insecure about the way I look. I know I'm only 13 and I shouldn't be worrying about stuff like this but I have servere depression and feel the need to get other people's opinions because I want people to like me way more than I like myself. please be honest and don't suger coat anything. do I look fat or ugly in this swimsuit. I know these are really terrible pictures.and I already know that I'm fat and ugly so please be honest.