Anxiety...

So tbh I have a loving and caring boyfriend ok here he is

So he’s put up with me for abouuttttt 6-7 months now and we do fight like best friends and that’s what we were before we started dating. We hung out last year and laughed and kissed and did all that stuff until we got into a fight and decided just to stop talking and that’s when I had to just basically tell myself I didn’t need him.

So I tried moving on and got a boyfriend and I thought I was happy but EVERY FUCKING DAY during that relationship with him I thought about the first guy I fell in love with. I ended it after a month and he was okay with it. He knew I wasn’t happy anyway.

A few weeks went by and I caught up with well, let’s just call him Sam. So I messaged Sam telling him I love him and I called him and we were on the phone till 3am and made the relationship work.

We started dating and let me tell you. This boy is my baby he’s got my heart.

We’ve been fighting a lot because I’m ig like over dramatic and over think everything and he gets mad because I ask the same thing over and over. He’s 17 and I’m turning 16 in two weeks

SO ANYWAY HAHAHA this is so dragged out I’m sorry

So we had a heart to heart conversation last night and face to face. He honestly sees us getting married. I’m his first love and it makes me so happy he thinks that. But he’s finally getting his own car soon and I’m scared time is gonna be taken away from me or he will do all this other stuff and ugh.

He says he knows that we will probably take a break for college then he wants us to reconnect after college.

Like tbh that kinda breaks my heart but he told me just don’t think about it because we don’t know if we will actually break up. Maybe we will stay strong and last.

My mom told me not to worry about it until the time comes and enjoy what’s harpooning now but UGH

He has ONE year of school left and I have twooooooo UGHBDJSKSNSKEN I hate high school relationships but I love em because I seriously love this boy more then anything. (Yes I know the feeling of love) My last real relationship was when I was 13 and it was for two years and what I THOGHT was love he was really just controlling and hurt me but tried to cover it up by telling me he loves me so much or whatever.

Anyway.

I love this boy and all I do is get anxiety about the college and car and growing up and I over think too much.

Is this anxiety?? What do I do to help it??

Look how precious 😭❤️

I’m so emotionally attached and ugh.