I can’t climax 😔

Ok so I have never had a climax. I have touched myself. 👆Used toys. 🚺 Had my boyfriend touch me. When he fingers it feels good but I can’t. I don’t know what it feels like. 😩 but this one time about a year and a half ago I was in the shower trying to get one and for a split second I felt this really good vibrations but before I knew it was there it was gone 😭. When he licks me I’m not that into it because I’m self conscious of down there so I can’t enjoy it 😅and I want to try to give him the best I can but I’m still a virgin so I won’t go to far. But I don’t want to have to have actual sex to enjoy what’s going on.

Any advice ☺️😔😂