Body Dysmorphia, Eating Disorders and Pregnancy

I’ll share some of my experiences, just so if somebody else feels similarly they know they’re not alone.

When I was 12-13 years old I began to starve myself and make myself sick because people bullied me about my weight. I won’t go into too much detail, but I eventually got back to a healthy weight because people THEN began to bully me about being too skinny.

I wasn’t just obsessed with my weight, I panicked about my nose, eyes, mouth and hair too. I just picked out every one of my flaws and magnified it in my head.

I’ve never received proper therapy for this but I have improved a lot as I’ve gotten older, that being said it hasn’t completely gone.

I’m 22 now, I’m 19 weeks pregnant and my body is changing. The majority of the time I’m so happy and excited but I also have this niggling little fear in the back of my head every time I look in the mirror and see myself getting bigger. This makes me worry about my other features too, e.g. ‘My hair doesn’t suit me at this weight’, ‘My face only suits being skinnier’

Deep down I know it’s okay, weight doesn’t matter at all and pregnancy is something to be enjoyed. I repeat to myself every day that it’s all okay and I try to help others feel good about themselves too.

Just know that if you don’t enjoy your pregnancy as much as you feel you should and suffer with similar problems, it’s okay 🙂 you are not alone.

If you feel comfortable enough you are welcome to share your own experiences down below.

Much love 💕

(I should add, just in case anybody is worried, I am not starving myself currently; quite the opposite at the moment! I am doing fine physically and baby is very healthy inside me!🙂)