Terrified to bf due to hypersensitivity. (tw: abuse)

Melissa

so this is my first pregnancy that did not end by 5 weeks. I'm 10w0d today.

I was sexually abused when I was 5 years old. ever since, my nipples have been hypersensitive and I HATE them being touched. to the point where I accidentally punched my ex in the face when he touched them. when I was a teenager I wore a bra 24/7 because the sensation of a shirt against them triggered PTSD flashbacks.

but there is a LOT of pressure on me to bf when I have the baby. between my family culture and the looming cost of formula from my husband. but I'm completely terrified that I wont be able to.

is there anyone else in a similar situation? what did you do?