I have an amazing boyfriend, 2 friends and well that’s really it my home situation is okay I guess I argue with my parents a lot but not because I want to they just don’t understand me. I stay up late eg. Tonight (2:35 am) and cry then can’t sleep all I want to do is move away, run away, or I don’t know disappear, I don’t even know if I mean die or not I just hate this. It’s summer and I’m crying how pathetic can I get? I’d like everything to be silent and good for once but not like actual silence just peaceful and calm like a movie so I’ll be okay and I know that because everyone gets their happy ending, right? I just want to fall asleep beside my boyfriend with his arms around me, playing with my hair, my head in his chest, but mostly to feel loved and fall asleep happy not crying and not able to remember what happened. Normally I only remember waking up not sleeping or going to sleep, I never actually get a good sleep I keep waking up. What is wrong with me? I can’t take this and I don’t even know what THIS is 😭😭

How do I know where to post this I just want help and I don’t know where to get it so I’m going to go with vent or something.