Latching🙄

Is it bad that I sometimes get sad to a point of tears that my son won’t latch on or I see other mothers having a super easy time with it..? Ive had to pump exclusively because he refuses to latch on...I’ve gone to a lactation specialist. She got him on once but he didn’t like it much..so I haven’t been able to get him back on since.

I’ve gotten mastitis twice and keep getting clogged ducts because my pump doesn’t get as deep as he could and I keep getting yeast infections on my nipples, no matter how clean I keep all of my gear... my pump is stuck to my hip and it’s hard to do anything because I have to stop and pump AND have someone hold/feed him with a bottle while I do, because he’s always ready to eat when I have to pump. 😢

This shit is so frustrating and painful and I feel bad for being envious of mommas that can just whip it out and feed their little ones like we’re supposed to.