Will I ever find love?

Hello everyone. My name is ayesha and this is me doing something I don’t usually do. Tell the world how I truly feel. I am 30 years old and even though I have had sex repeatedly and had feelings for men. I have yet to truly fall in love. I have yet to find my plus one, my partner in crime, My counterpart. And now I know this sounds drastic and childish but I feel it’s never going to happen. I have looked and waited and even prayed for this person to come into life and hold me tight but I have now lost hope. I always think God has a plan for everyone and have always thought maybe I don’t know yet but I will find him but this hope w each day that passes bye and my loneliness exceeds feels like a distant memory.