Hello ladies

So we lost our baby in November last year at 2 months pregnant.

I’m now nearly 18 weeks with our rainbow baby and he’s a boy.

We are extremely excited nervous etc,

I’m so worried and I know it’s easy to say not to worry but I literally have not brought one thing, I keep wanting private scans because I still don’t believe it, I feel like it’s to good to be true. I’m scared to buy things I always think what if there’s nothing more in this world that I want other than our baby boy to be healthy and pregnancy to go smooth which is practically has all this way through so far. I’m arguing with my partner and just feel I take everything out on him I feel really down, I’m trying so hard to stay positive but i can’t even help it

Any advice please!!