Not a committed relationship but we’re still together?.....ummm wtf!? Help it make sense.

Ok soooooo. This guy who I was deeply in love with...and who I thought was deeply in love with me as well..just told me he no longer wants a committed relationship..but he still wants to be together and hang out and continue things as normal. We have 2 trips coming up and he said he still wants me to go with him...

Wtf does that mean! I’m like either we’re together or we aren’t.

But let me back track for a second. I always get this gut feeling when something is wrong or when I’m being cheated on. There were instances I caught a female calling him, and he always deletes his text messages. He claims it helps with storage in his phone 🙄 LOL.

Anyway. Last night i was really suspicious. I have his password to his gmail account and i saw on his google activity locations that he went to this nice restaurant near our house. Long story short, he met up with a female.

Right now I’m so hurt and confused because I literally did not see this coming.

I need help with what to do. Would you all stay and go with the flow..:or pack your bags and move on? Idk what to do 💔☹️ i don’t want to loose my money on our planned vacations either. One is in September and the other December.

EDIT: He said that he still loves me and is in love with me. He just doesn’t want a committed relationship. Idk if it’s my insecurities but I just feel like I won’t ever find anyone else. He also treated me like a complete queen prior to all of this. thats why I’m so hurt. I didn’t see it coming.

OMG THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH FOR THE RESPONSES..I WAS NOT EXPECTING ANYONE TO RESPOND! THANK YOU LADIES FOR HELPING ME GAIN CLARITY AND TO THINK STRAIGHT. I’ve been crying all day but you all definitely just made me feel better. ❤️❤️❤️