Need to vent... maybe someone has been through something similar.

In Feb 2018, I lost my first pregnancy at 9 weeks (baby passed at 6.5). I took the miso pills.

Shortly after I had a LEEP that was needed but they wouldn’t do it while pregnant.

Well we got our BFP again in June 2018. I had some spotting at 5w4d so went to emerg due to my miscarriage months earlier. They did a scan and saw a gestational sac and yolk sac measuring 5w2d, so basically right on point. My levels were checked and they were rising, but never doubling after they hit 4,500. Progesterone was checked early and was 80.

I went for a follow up scan at my OB office 2 weeks later. I was measuring 5w6d so that’s only 4 days growth in 2 weeks, and measuring a week behind LMP. She had me do more bloodwork, and again rising but not doubling so I went for another scan 4 days later and now I’m only measuring 5w1d. At this point I accepted the fact there was only a gestational and yolk sac, and no fetal pole. She gave me a prescription for miso again, but wanted me to do one more blood draw. Well the results of that still show an increase, so here we are, waiting yet again for another blood draw Monday. If yet again it’s still rising we will wait a WEEK and do another scan before deciding to take the pill.

Basically what we’re looking at is a Blighted Ovum. At this point I have no hope and I just want this over with. I know when I ovulated due to OPK and when I got my BFP (7DPO). My dates are not off. If there was no baby at 8weeks LMP then I don’t expect to see anything at 9.5 weeks LMP so I’m not sure what hope the OB is holding onto other then making me very emotionally unstable (if there magically happened to be a baby at 9.5 week scan then there is something VERY wrong!!)

Sorry for the long post.. I just needed to vent. I am so over this and just want it over with.