Relationship

I have been in a relationship for three years and within those three years my boyfriend and I broke up. He has trust issues and does trust me. We have no social media but I want social media back. We always fight makeup then breakup . It’s repetitive and annoying. I want I be with him but at the same time I want to be free. I always cry and I live at his house. I want to go back home but I know I’ll miss him. Should me stay or break up? He’s my first boyfriend. How do I bring this up I know of if I bring this up it will ruin him. My family doesn’t like him and he doesn’t like my family.