So I’m a top 50 prospect for college volleyball and my mom has always support/ expected me to play in college. My older brother is on a full ride football scholarship at a D1 school and she says she expects me to go bigger than him however, over the past year I have struggle with anxiety and depression from my dads abusive actions and I’m medicated. I lost my meds and didn’t tell her and when I told her that I don’t want to play in college anymore she told me I am not in the right state of mind and that I’m throwing my life away over this decision. She has made so many sacrifices to give me to visibility and coaching that I have needed to get to this point but I just don’t want to continue past Hugh school anymore. She been crying on and off for like two days and I feel like i hurt her because I don’t want to play anymore. I don’t know what to do but I’ve made up my mind and she’s still upset.