I took myself off my meds as soon as i got the positive result so I'm doing withdrawals and early pregnancy symptoms - neither of which are as bad as i expected but still turning my world around. All the upcoming tests and exams will be triggers that could set me off for hours or days. Everything about pregnancy is a trigger. My hospital is a trigger. Blood is a trigger. And if you understand ptsd you might understand that i spend my nights reading horror stories of lost babies until my chest is so tight i can't breathe or i watch svu back to back until my stomach is twisted in to sick knots. I just want to know that I'm not alone, that someone else out there is fighting this misery, someone else is holding themselves and praying for strength.