Ex is having a baby, feeling horrible about myself

Natasha • I just want my rainbow baby 🤕🌈 08-28-15 👼🏻 Already 2 years ttc for you.☹️

No I’m not jealous he’s having a kid with another woman . I’m glad idc. But it did hurt me because during our relationship i blamed him for me not getting pregnant , saying he smokes too much and that it’s affecting the process . We tried a lot and it never happened , he’s been with this woman for 4 months and they’re expecting , 😥 I broke down man , I cried so much , it just made me understand it’s me , I’m the one with the problem. I could say I did get so mad after crying because I’m trying so hard to have my own family and I’m doing things correctly , got my own place, a job , etc . He moved in with a grown woman and got her pregnant 🤨 she’s older than him and he just mooches off her , I know he does cause he did the same to me just I didn’t have as much as A GROWN WOMAN would , but i remember how surprised he sounded when I got my own place months after we broke up . Ugh again I’m just mad at myself