My Love Life

Hey Girls! so I'm new here and just turned 18 and need a little help...

so this guy who I've had a crush on since I met him which was 4 years ago now ( btw he had a gf at the time) started talking to me in March, which I was estatic about, he is so nice and caring and so much fun to be around. at first I couldn't believe he was talking to me, we would flirt and sext and just talk about random stuff. about 4 weeks later he asked me out and we went to the movies and then to the arcade and versed each other in some games because we are both really competitive and he paid for everything even though I offered. I thought the date went amazing and I got home and not long after received a message from him asking to be just friends but "close friends" I said it was cool and it was okay but of course it wasn't I cried for 2 days. we didn't talk for a couple of days after this and then he messaged me and asked whether I was okay, I told him that I wasn't and that I cried and he said he felt like an ass and I told him not too I just got caught up in it too easily. anyway we kept talking and have been ever since 24/7 unless he was working or asleep. although he still flirts with me and we still sext every now and again.

I see him every Thursday and Saturday and I look forward to it all week, yes I'm still hung up on him...

so 2 weeks ago because I'm on school holidays he messaged me and asked if I wanted to hang out because he didn't have work, of course I said yes so we organised it, we met at a shopping centre and walked around and got something to eat, then we decided to go back to his place where we played video games I was having so much fun, at about 3ish he had to start making dinner for him and his mother so I offered to help even though I really don't cook myself, I helped him and I really enjoyed it before I began cooking I put my hair up and because I was wearing of one of the cropped jumpers my belly was showing and he started to poke me and touching me and I told him to stop and he did eventually.. after we finished cooking we went back to play video games and he grabbed my ass on the way through and I just looked at him and then we were sitting on the couch and he kept staring at me and was like I really wanna do something right now and I asked what and then I started talking about something and mid sentence he kissed me (btw this was my first kiss) and he asked whether that was okay and I said yes to he continued to kiss me which led to him taking me to his bedroom and doing more but not as far as sex. I told him to stop when I finally clicked that this was happening and realised this could go so much further and he did he was okay with it and asked whether I was okay and if it hurt and then we layed in his bed together just talking and cuddling and then I got up to get dressed and he got up as well and walked out and then was like fuck it one more and came back in and kissed me again. I had no idea what to do I was freaking out. after he was like I hope this doesn't make anything awlward between us and I just didn't know what to do I was like no of course not and then I spent another 4 hours with him and then I went home.... I'm so confused cause he just wants to be friends but he still wants to do all that sorta stuff with me and I am honestly so in love with him I just don't know what to do. what do you guys think I should do?