my miscarriage

okay so I don't even know how to start this with out even crying.. so for about a week I been having symptoms of a pregnancy including back aches, lower belly pains that started small and lasted very little so I didn't think nothing of it but I also have had what I think we're little signs like a kind of old wives take if female dogs lay on your belly your having a boy and his versa. So all the female dogs in my mom's home including my princess kept laying on my belly but not know of the boys so that is what I thought was another little sign well fast forward another week and my lower stomach cramps started to get worse and they were lasting a little longer than they did and it kept getting bad. My fiance and I don't really think to much of it even though we should have but we didn't so he was just there every day through my pains and making sure I was fed and had plenty of water or fluids in me at all times and just making sure that me and the baby were okay well a few days later when I was 2weeks and 2 days my pains would come alot stronger and stay for long periods of time it was painfull to the point where I would burst out crying in pain because I couldn't take the pain anymore so my mother in law took me and my fiance to the er and they took a urine, blood work and a ultrasound for them to tell me that there is no sign of a baby baby and that I most likely miscarried very early on and all through that we wait over 7 hours in the er when we got the news it broke me, I broke down crying as soon as the doctor went out I was in so much pain this was our first baby or would have been our first little baby but sadly we are not and I'm trying my best to write this while trying not to cry which is not working very well so now my fiance blames him self for the miscarriage because he said he should have token me sooner and it kills me to each him break down every night but we are still trying for our rainbow baby we love you clarissa-belle or carlos huizar the 3rd momma and daddy love sorry for the long post you guys I just had to vent it all out