It is only our second month TTC after our son was stillborn in April. I am 10 DPO and got a negative test this morning. I know it could be too early and even if I’m not pregnant, my cycles are already regular again so we can try next month and the month after etc until we finally get it.

But I can’t shake this feeling that it’s never going to happen for me. I am 31 and my partner is 48. He tried for a couple years with his ex wife and they never got pregnant. They never saw a doctor or anything, so who knows why.

We conceived benjamin the first month we started trying. What if he was a fluke? I feel bad saying this because I know there are people who have been trying forever. But my sons due date is coming up and it’s hard to feel positive.