Giving up hope!

Elle • Rainbow baby due 🌈💕 October 17th 2020

I've been trying to get pregnant for a year now & still nothing. i want a baby so bad and every Neg test makes me more & more depressed! I woke up 5am Friday so nauseous went & got sick then back to bed. then been nauseous some times during the day after that. Junes period was messed up just some spotting & now i am having the light bleeding early than my expected period this month again along with the now "morning sickness" i am scared to test tho i dont want to see that fucking negative again this month