My son Ivan 3rd was stillborn at 21 weeks on July 13, 2015 I'm fresh from his death and struggling to deal with losing him yesterday was the first time I've been home and when I saw his things I broke down and cried it's so hard this is my second lost the first one was at 13 weeks on June 23, 2014 and I thought that was hard only difference is I didn't know what the sex that baby was and only one year later to get pregnant and ready for him to join our lives all for him to leave us so soon was devastating I cry and pray every night and day to God asking why and if a miracle can happen for him to be brought back to me but I know that's not possible I feel weak can't eat or sleep I just miss him and what impact he put on my life for those 5 months