Scared to death of a BFN

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I’ve been trying for to long to not have a BFP I actually thought June was my month but NOPE Bloody Mary showed 5 days early which it’s never have done before so I’ve been having symptoms since 8dpo but tested 11dpo and negative but then I’m still having cramping and this weekend I slept so much that I thought I was pregnant but with my luck and 4 years of trying I really just don’t know what to think anymore.

Bought some first response test today (7/16) and I don’t know if I should test or when I should or should I just give up for June and try for July (which I’m already doing)

BD 7/15 which is cycle day 14