I had a miscarriage...

I never knew I could hurt like this... This is my first miscarriage... I feel stupid for being so upset... I was very early into pregnancy. I didn’t know I was pregnant.... My family told me “It doesn’t matter early, how tiny, how big... it was YOUR baby!” My heart hurts. My mind is overflowed with “what ifs”..... I have no many questions... Is it okay to say my baby is in heaven? Am I still considered a mom to a baby I never gave birth to? Am I being ridiculous for bawling my eyes out?.... Why did this happen to me?