My boyfriend is messy and doesn't know what he wants in life in general let alone he doesn't know about me either we just lost our baby work is stress he's just lost himself and admits he hates himself. He said he didn't want to marry me nor have kids with me anymore while he was sobbing and screaming still hesitant of what he had just said. Idk how long to wait for him it's 5 years with this man love of my life and I never thought this was coming. The baby did bring us apart and yes we argue our communication is poor and I wish he told me this sooner but he didn't I asked if he would want to try again and he said no he's 100%. I couldn't take that and walk away I went to our apartment at 4am ( I'm staying somewhere else while he can live at our apartment) I told him everything I needed to say he asked me do you love me for me and I said fuck yes with a million reasons why and what I love and he thinks I fell out of love but I didn't I just lost myself to as well as he did. Idk how to take this I have asked for advice on here and some may see it and get annoyed but I can care less. I just lost my baby and now him. He said he has to think on what he wants which I get but I'm here crying in my chest waiting for that text or call of good news or bad news. How long do I wait... Just need more people and more advice I'm not okay mentally. I'm sick to my stomach... this was June 24 our anniversary.. how can you look at someone like he just did in this picture and say I'm not "in love" with you but I love you. ... how??