Utterly depressed...

Kinda long.... I apologize but I need to get it off my chest. I lost my first pregnancy at 7 weeks on January 18. Been depressed ever since... I want to try again but SO doesn't feel the same way right now. Recently we have been fighting alot because I have been a real nit picky bitch but I have reason... He allowed his cousin to move in with us because the father of her unborn child told her to abort so she left with nowhere to go... Now she knows I lost my baby yet at every turn it seems like she is rubbing her pregnancy in my face... I can't take much more. I understand she is excited about her baby but she doesn't have to be so insensitive to me. Not to mention she has brought 2 different men into my home... Neither one being the father...