Lord forgive me if I am ever seem selfish, impatient, or angry about this process. I know the plans you have for me are greater than I could ever imagine. I know you hear me cry and you are there at ever low I’ve reached with this journey.

I have prayed and prayed, but nothing happened. I am frustrated with myself and my body. I do not understand why my body doesn’t do what it’s suppose to. I don’t understand why having a kid is so hard for me. Seeing those around me get pregnant instantly has definitely been a challenge. Hearing everyone impatiently ask when we are going to have kids has been quite upsetting. I haven’t shared with anyone besides a close friend that we have been ttc.

I ask for your prayers. My husband and I have been trying for over a year. We have been together for 2 years. I was diagnosed with pcos 5 months ago. We have been actively seeing a fertility specialist, I have been doing femara just started my gonal F shot today, so fingers crossed that my follicle size gets bigger (my eggs haven’t been maturing which means I am not ovulating and doesn’t give me a chance to even get pregnant). I go back to see the doctor on Friday. If everything is good. I will ovulate and we can hopefully get successful the end of the month. Baby dust to all.