PLEASE HELP, need orgasm tips ASAP

I am 29, have been having sex for over a decade with different men on a semi-regular basis when single and a very regular basis when in a relationship, and I have NEVER orgasmed with a partner!

I am partly at fault because I fake it a LOT but I’ve tried to not fake it and keep going to see if I orgasm but it just never happens and I just get tired of trying.

My current boyfriend is extremely caring and puts my pleasure first (we live together now) but I have faked it for so long now that I have no idea how to break it to him that I have never orgasmed. During penetration, it feels good but it’s mostly because I am enjoying the intimacy and because I am in love with my boyfriend, but it’s not pleasurable per se. He rubs my clit well or gives me oral, which does feel very very pleasurable but I just never get there.

I can only orgasm when I masturbate and it happens very quickly, about 20 seconds in, and it’s pretty mild. I have tried vibrators and penetration with them doesn’t feel like anything, I mostly use it on my clit, which makes me cum but, again, super quick and pretty mild.

I am afraid I will never orgasm with a partner and I so desperately want to experience that!

Has anyone had a similar experience? Were you able to fix it? Please help with tips!