Ok so quick background me and my partner have been together 18months I am currently 4months pregnant. we both have 2 children from previous relationships so together this is baby 5.. I sit here alot and think how much I want to be his wife. And how much I want to be married to him.. this week has been a bad week. Someone has been stabbed and died in our circle and a homeless person needed help where we are sure she didn't make it from drug abuse.. my mum has Lyme disease and is struggling mentally right now causing strain on the family. ... And I just feel emotional.. And part of that makes me what yo marry my other half now.. I'm not interested in a wedding. even if he asked we couldn't afford one for at least 3-5 years realistically as we need a house we don't want to rent forever. I just worried that if we wait for the best time financially we may never get married..this is all based on him wanting to marry me.. he hasn't asked so he may not. I don't know what I'm asking really. just wanted to get my feelings off my chest.. I just fear one day it may be too last after this week's perspective on life x