I am TERRIFIED of giving birth

Me

I’m a FTM and I’m so scared of giving birth. I hate pain. The last time I was this scared was when I got my wisdom teeth out. I’ve never had anesthesia and thought “watch I’ll be the one who’s allergic to it”. Well it wasn’t bad at all and I had very little pain. Thank you vicodin.

I feel that way giving birth. I am 40+1 and he’s coming any day. I am so scared of not being in control and making sure my needs (demands) are met. I’m the one on the bed, I’m the one in pain, I’m the one ripping my vagina. It is my body. Not anyone else’s.

Help a girl out.