I need help (am I being bullied into surgery?)

I’m sitting here bawling my eyes out basically having a panic attack.

I have had a healthy pregnancy this entire time. Good blood work and blood pressure. I’ve gained about 60 pounds but my midwife never brought it up like it was a problem. Last Tuesday I requested an ultrasound to see how my baby was positioned and my midwife didn’t seem very concerned as she doesn’t do cervical checks or multiple ultrasounds as part of her practice but she scheduled me one to ease my mind.

Well I found out last Thursday that baby is butt down. I was 38+1 on that day so they set me up an appointment with a regular OB in the same building for the following Monday (July 16) it took two and a half hours to finally be seen by this guy and when he finally comes around he waltzes into the room and like recites a script about how the baby is breech and they’re gonna set me up for a c section on Friday July 20th and c sections have risks like a cut colon and infection and do I understand everything he just said to me. And I’m just lying on the bed in shock because of how fast he’s telling me all this and then the nurse apparently told me to put my legs up but I didn’t hear her because she was in a corner and speaking quietly so then this doctor goes “hellooo? Hannah? Get the peanut butter out of your ears” and I thought ok maybe he’s joking? But I don’t know this guy he’s acting so flippant and rushed and hurried and was ready to leave the room after checking my cervix (first time I’ve ever had it done and I don’t even know if I was dilated. He didn’t tell me) And I was like wait why can’t we move the baby? Is there a chance she could move on her own? And he’s like well because you have “extra padding” there’s no point in trying to rotate her and your fluids are kinda low so a surgery is just gonna be best (completely ignores my question about whether or not she could turn on her own) and he just rushes out.

I’m so confused. I don’t like the way he was speaking to me. I don’t like how rushed he was acting and I don’t like how he can schedule me to have a c section four days from Monday if me and my baby aren’t in any danger. I’m 39 weeks today. Not even 40 weeks. I have no idea if I am being bullied into surgery or if I should get a second opinion about all this. I have been under tremendous stress every day since Monday and have been sobbing uncontrollably because I am so scared to have surgery. I will have it no problem if it is what’s best for me and my baby but he didn’t say much if anything to ease my mind or give me any concrete evidence that this was totally necessary.

I feel like a sheep or a cow being led to slaughter and I feel like a joke patient because I’m a little bit heavier like my feelings don’t matter. I’m supposed to go to the hospital in the morning for pre op stuff and then at 7 am on Friday they’re gonna slice me open and i just feel like all of this is wrong. I don’t have cell phone service to call my doctor and ask for a referral and their offices are closed. Is this Normal? Am I just being crazy? If something was seriously wrong with me or baby or something pressing to cause a problem wouldn’t he have us have surgery sooner? Why can’t I go into labor on my own and see if she turns on her own? I’m a mess and I can’t stop hyperventilating and I feel like an asshole but this just doesn’t feel right. I don’t trust doctors to be honest with me and I don’t know why. I feel like they are out for a paycheck and nothing else and his busy attitude and urgency to leave and not answer any questions further proves that feeling for me. It’s why I chose a midwife but now I don’t get her anymore. Does anyone have any advice?