I’m experiencing a lot of spiritual warfare lately. I was raped about a month ago. And I still feel his hands every night when I have nightmares. It kills me that people tell me “Give your wanting for sex again up to God.” I am. But we all know, this takes time. Meanwhile, as a sexually knowledgeable woman, I want to get my positive association with it back. I want to do it again to feel someone but him. Is this normal? What Biblical passages can I look to in this?