Boy Drama

I know you’ve all heard your fair share of boy drama on this app but I really need some girl-to-girl advice. My first love and I broke up a year ago, and started talking again. We talked about how we never really moved on from each other and it was very hard on both of us. We are very much still in love. Around the same time, I started talking to a new boy. He’s very new to my life and I was seriously thinking of pursuing him. I truly have no idea what to do. My feelings are conflicted in every way I can see.

My first love and I have a very obvious connection and spark, but we broke up for a good reason. Long distance. He’s truly my best friend. He speaks of him moving back here in 2 years and how talking to me is preparing for us to be together again. I truly do want to be with him again, but the fear of losing him again would haunt me. Especially because it has been a year since we broke up and I was still not over it. I do not want to lose him. Ever.

With the new boy, I’m terrified that if I go for him he’ll end up crushing me the same way first love did.

Please help me. Give me personal experience and advice. I’m lost. Move on or don’t move on?