i was told at 14 years old that I had pcos. i had no idea what that even meant. i was so scared, the only thing i could think of is that there was something wrong with me. i went home & researched none stop about what it meant. abnormal cycles, infertility, weight problems, acne, depression. i’ve felt every single one. i was devastated to basically be told there could be a chance that i’ll never have a baby. a year later, i met the love of my life. i told him about everything i had. i didn’t ovulate, i didn’t have periods.. there was no way i could get pregnant? so at the time, we both had good paying jobs, i was online schooled & as was he. we could take care of a baby, so we made the decision to start trying; at 16. fast forward 3 years later... still trying, no baby, moving out in 2 months, both have good paying jobs, & i’m about to start med school. i’ve had so many times that my mind has played tricks on me & makes me think that i’m pregnant, then i test & BFN... recently i’ve been spotting brownish discharge like i never have, my nipples are actually extremely sensitive & itchy. my stomach feels so BLOATED & my clothing is so tight. I also don’t fall asleep until 5 a.m.. & im still exhausted thruout the day. my back had this extremely bad pain in it the other night but it was in my upper back. i’ve had some cramping. idk it feels different. but i say this every. single. time. i don’t want to be devastated again...