VENTING

Kaiya • 06/06/15💒 10/07/16👶🏼💙 04/16/18👼🏻 06/21/2019 👶🏼💙 01/21/2022👶🏼💙

Seriously, why is it soooo easy for some to get pregnant? Especially those who don’t need to have kids or have no desire to have them? It’s like they simply think of a penis and boom they’re expecting! Everyone around me is pregnant, including my mom! Hers was obviously not planned, she was even on birth control! She is 42 years old and is now over 24 weeks along. I actually knew she was pregnant before she did. She thought she was just dealing with the “keto diet flu.” There will be 22 years between me and my one and only little brother. I’m happy to finally have a brother. My mom and I would actually be pregnant together if I wouldn’t of miscarried. I was so hopeful this month was our month. No, I do not temp or use ovulation strips. I don’t want it to become a chore like before. We were trying to conceive our first child, once we gave up doing all the extra stuff and just had sex when we felt like it, we were finally successful. Signs were pointing to this could be our month and then aunt Flo was late too. She was late by three days, and that never happens. Showed her ugly face this morning and I am devastated. She always comes around like clockwork. I had a miscarriage back in April. We just want our rainbow baby and to give our son a sibling. You know, you are taught while you’re really young that you don’t want to have sex because you’ll absolutely end up pregnant. I know it’s a way to encourage abstinence. However, no one tells you how it could actually be very hard to conceive and how emotionally draining it can be when you desire something so much and do what you’re supposed to do, yet nothing happens. I just needed to vent. Thanks for reading.