Ok, I’m 13. And lately I’ve been feeling really down. I mean everything just seems to be wrong. It’s the summer holidays where I am which makes things a little harder cause I can’t go to school to bring myself up a bit, and I haven’t seen my friends from school in 5 weeks. And I miss them tbh...

Just my daily routine kills me a bit more each day...

I need to wake up at 7, go away to my Gran’s house each morning, (which is far away from where I stay and where my friends are...) I don’t come home till about 6-7. Then I fall out with my Mum for mostly no reason, normally because I’m upset about not seeing her or my Dad. Then I go to bed, I stay there cause I know it’s safe and cosy. I do this all through the week, then on weekends my Dad continues to work while I’m stuck with my Mum, who I always end up falling out with again, but she never wants to go out because shes been away working all week... So I’m stuck again in a house with nothing to do and nobody to talk to. I feel like my life is just a loop, same thing each day, week, month... It never changes, apart from the way I feel, sad and lonely.

The only person I can talk to is my Dad but...

My Dad works from 8:30-3:00 then he goes back out to work again at 4:00-12:30 at night.... I never really see my Dad, but he is honestly the only person recently that i haven’t had a fallout with, he’s really my best friend and one of the only people that can bring me up. (For a short while.) It makes it harder that I never see him.

Well... my other friends I don’t see them over the summer, I text them sometimes but it’s never the same. And yeah I get a bit jealous when I see them all going out together, but I can never go because I’m always too far away.

It’s just depressing, same thing all the time... Nothing changes. And I always end up feeling the same way at the end of it, angry, sad, depressed... 😔

I’ve started not eating a lot, I don’t think I’ve had one proper meal today. I just say I’m not hungry. Seriously all I’ve ate today is, a bit of toast and tea, popcorn and a slush puppie... Not much but I don’t even fee like eating and I don’t know why?

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Sorry for going on like this, I just had to put something out there. Considering I’ve got nobody to tell this to, makes me feel better writing it out. Hopefully someone else knows how I feel.

😔💙