I feel cursed

In May I lost my babygirl after 23 weeks and I’m just starting my 2nd cycle.... My babygirl was my world and she wasn’t even here yet. Today, I just found out my ex husband who cheated on me for most of our 5 year relationship is now having twin girls and already has a baby boy.

Why is it the man who broke my heart and caused me to be extremely insecure following our marriage, is now living the best life ever and having babies on babies but yet my baby girl was ripped away from me. I’m so angry, and hurt. I just want my baby girl back!

Nothing will make me feel that happiness again until I’m pregnant again.