Rough Sex Painful in Stomach when Penetrating

Gabriela-Jacquelina • 22🦋 Bikini Designer & Expressionist Painter 🦋 CEO of GGBIKINI

I want to let my boyfriend fuck me as he pleases but it can get super painful for me he is very big and i am very small so I can feel him in what feels like my stomach when he goes all the way in, it’s really painful and I don’t like it. Is it because I’m not as wet? When I am high there is no problem. So the vagina CAN withstand it. Is it because I’m more tense when not high and can’t let go of my control?