Hello.i will start with this -i got pregnant when i was 18 years old. Baby's father left me when i said that i will not get an abortion. His.mother called me to let me know that she wants me to do abortion, but i said no. (after a while she gave a birth to a baby daughter, so i know her reason) it was hard for me. I cried like every day.

Once my daughter was born i said to hernin hospital that i promise to be the best for her and that i promise to find her a daddy who will love her and do best for her.

After a 1,5 year a met my highschool crush and since then we have our own little family,we got married after only a half a year(gave birth to another baby girl this april)

My husband is absolutely wonderful, i have never felt rhat much love and i love him dearly.

Fast forward- yesterday was my birthday and get a letter from my husbands granny(lovely sweet lady) and at the end of the letter she said - evie's(my youngest) grandgrand mother.

And now i feel so bad, she always exclude my daughter even my husband always refers my oldest as his daughter as well as his parents.

I think its my fault. There are some days when i cry my self out and think how selfish i was when i got pregnant with my oldest. I love her some much i have a feeling that have stole her a mother(my mother loves her dearly) as i choose to have her. She is so good, such a good 3 year old. And im so proud of her. And still there is a pain. Why would her 'real' father and his gmother dont love her? Im scared that she will be in pain when she is older when i will tell her about her 'real' father. When do i have to tell her that?(she thinks that my hubby is her dad and i know this is painful for him as well).

There are days when i think about her 'real' father and i dont know how i feel about that. We met when she was 1year old and talk and i gave him hers photographies and when he looked at them his face looked like he would be in pain. Then we had i situation when i lost my job and askednhim for help(to at least take our baby while i will get a job) and he told me he woill never ever help us.

So dear girls have any of you been in situation like this or similar ? How can i be a better mother for my 3year old baby so she wouldnt have to feel the pain?(my dad left us when i was 2 months old and now i have about 14 half siblings) Sorry for the long rant and my english(im from europe and still learning).have a nice day.